Back to Blogging After I Decided Not To Attempt Suicide
Editor's note: Thank you to Ken for sharing your story and experience.
On June 22, 2018, I went to the Jurong Police Division. This was because I attempted suicide a few weeks ago, and I was apprehended by the police. The police sent me to a temporary cell. After six hours, I was sent to the Institute of Mental Health (IMH) in Singapore, where I was hospitalized.
I only attempted suicide, but I am afraid to die. When the police apprehended me, I wasn't feeling mentally well. When I had to be hospitalized in the IMH, I wasn't feeling mentally well either. The whole experience was horrible, and so I made the decision that I would never attempt suicide again. When you attempt suicide but had not commit it yet, your mind was already not feeling mentally well.
Today, I went to the Jurong Police Division to see the investigation officer (IO). The IO needed two important documents from me, and I forgot to bring them. I rushed back home to bring these the documents and passed it onto the IO. The IO declared that my case of attempted suicide would be closed.
After meeting the IO, I drove to a KFC drive-thru in Kallang to buy myself a set meal. I ate inside the car instead of eating inside KFC. I have a social phobia, so I always try to look for a place where there aren’t many people— in this case, inside my car where I do not need my earphones.
James Cook University (JCU) in Singapore was in the vicinity so, I drove there. I felt nostalgic. JCU was the place where I met my two best friends, where I studied and experienced student life. It was where I was the happiest. Unfortunately, I dropped out from my degree in Information Technology at JCU four years ago, in 2014. The reason can be found here on my blog.
One day, I hope to return to JCU and complete my studies, but I won't be able to work as a web designer and developer after I complete my degree. I am autistic, so I have poor social skills and I won't be able to work in a team of web designers and developers. I can only go to SG Enable, where they help autistic adults find work in a suitable field.
I would like to thank you for reading my blog post. I sincerely hope that you have a nice day. Good bye :)
- Ken
Singapore
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